Missing our Girl

It's very late Sunday night, 2 am in the morning. I am up ,not because I am sad, but because I desire to draw close the Lord. I cant express yet this entire adoption experience, I pray that the Lord will give me the encouragement and grace to write what we have expereinced through Jesus Christ. The utter joy, humility, and awe that comes from following God's leading. Not everyone understands our journey or even supports it, and at times, it can hurt. But we are so steadfast and confident that "He who began a good work in us will bring it to completion".

When we started our adoption journey, we knew their would be tough days, we knew the wait would be difficult...we had no idea the pain that would be associated with leaving our daughter back in Guatemala and the absolute anxiousness in not knowing when we will be allowed to bring her home. It's hard to miss all those precious little moments, her first burp, her first hick up....her first smile. Yet we know that the Lord will still bless us with those, for when we are united, her smile will be a first for us. Its just that we know how very much she sill change over the months, how much she will grow. OUr update this week said she is already 9.2 lbs and 21" long! I should be recording that info, but this journey is different, the pain is different. It's not pains of labor or delivery....its perseverance pain, its having faith greater than a mustard
seed pain, it's the pain of learning to trust a God that is so much bigger than we could ever imagine and then BELIEVING Him to hold true to his promises. It's a true walk of faith.

Yet I can say with the utter most confidence, the pain is subsiding, the Lord's strength is taking over and we are truly in a place where we BELIEVE! We have no reason not to, for we have experienced his miracles in the referral of our daughter. From her picture, to meeting with our birth Mother, the travel plans and the time spent with our daughter. It is so evident to us that God's plan is at hand and we are lucky enough to be gift receivers.

The uncertainty of the Guatemalan Govt. is not an issue for us. We know that God is already there and he has already answered the prayers of thousands of families and children. For He is the children's one and true Father, and it is not his will for these children to sit in foster homes or institutions. The Lord said to "father the fatherless" and we will do just that. There is no devil in hell that can stop the love of the Lord....did I mention the love of a Mother through the love of the Lord! Look out Satan, you are stoppable now!

When I have those brief moments of doubt, I think of a scenario my Mother shared with me.
Imagine dropping to your knees in front of Jesus and looking up in to his beaten and bloodied face, tired and exhausted from the weight of his cross and see him look down in to your face and say "My sweet child.....Do you believe I will do this for you"? Although my tongue would be swollen and the words would be difficult to mutter out, my response will and could only be "YES Lord, I believe....I believe"! How could I not. This is the same Jesus that was beaten, bullied and humiliated and then went to the cross for me so that I may have life. And He didn't just do it for me, but for anyone who chooses to believe. You see, that's overwhelming, that's a love that no human can ever fathom....except a parent. As parents, we would willingly lay down our lives for our children. walk the ends of the earth to find them. So why would our Jesus not do the same? The point is, He would do the same and he does it everyday. The good news is, He's already there, you just need to ask.

I enjoy sharing our ministry of adoption with all of you. Believe us when I say, it's been an indescribable journey for our family as well.

May God bless all of you and thank for you checking in on us. We expect news this week from Guatemala on many counts. The Joint Council Announcement on Grandfathering current cases as well as a possible Family Court Release Date of our case and a US Embassy Pre Approval! Please stay tuned.

God bless all of you and may he hold you in the palm of his hand.